Nothing Less

There is still have a lot to work to do but I’m not quitting. I still remain confident to change for the better. Needing to see continual progress for that change to materialize. I have started a routine taking back my life. Having my creativity to help exercise my emotions is working out well. I am conscience of the cleanliness of the house as well as the stability. Same goes for work. And I don’t not mix the two anymore. It was too caustic. Work is busy but that is good.

I have vowed to show my wife a new and stronger man who is ready to love again. One who can take the roller coaster of everyday life and ask for more. A person that is good hearted and able to control the things that can and to let the rest go. To not need anyone rather to want. To smile and embrace life one day at a time.I do know the person I am going to be. (Part my dad and partly not. Dad is a great man full of energy and with his age comes wisdom. To cherish the laughter of a child and the blisters on his hands. But more caring at the same time. Mostly just the responsible hard working after work kind of guy.) I feel reborn no longer turning to substances rather substance.

We are going out for lunch Thursday and a Friday visit to a museum. What comes next? What ever feels natural. I do see the person I am. Now I want it to be more than that. Not feeling as lost right now. But I do want to discover what else I could be. I was on my way after the military. (just from a daily routine and responsibility stand point. Lol I hated the military no creativity! Felt like a number.) I just took and extended vacation. I am going to be myself and nothing less.
I love you Amy!

God please enable me to remain focused